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The Scourging at the Pillar: A Reflection on Suffering and Spiritual Exhaustion
It has been a very long week.
We have been extremely short-handed at work, and the constant grind has worn me thin. I feel completely drained — mentally, physically, and emotionally. But it feels deeper than ordinary fatigue. It feels as though everything good inside of me has been wrung out.
As bitterness began to creep in, Jesus gently reminded me of the sacrifices He made for me.
Praying the Rosary in Exhaustion
When I feel exhausted and defeated, I often turn to the Sorrowful Mysteries of the Rosary. There is something about meditating on Christ’s suffering that reorders my perspective.
This week, the Scourging at the Pillar stood out vividly.
While praying my rosary, I turned to the Sorrowful Mysteries, as I often do when I feel exhausted and defeated.
The Scourging stood out vividly.
“Then Pilate took Jesus and had Him scourged.” –John 19:1
Such a short verse.
Such unimaginable suffering.
I always picture the Roman soldiers using a cat-of-nine-tails — a whip with several cords bound together, often embedded with metal or glass, designed to inflict maximum pain.
I imagine Jesus tied to a pillar as a Roman soldier strikes Him over and over again.
It is gruesome. Bloody. Horrific to contemplate.
The soldier is relentless. Each blow tears His flesh into gaping wounds. With every strike, He grows weaker. The shouts of the crowd seem to drown out His cries of sheer agony.
And yet, in prayer, I sensed His words in my heart:
“This is the beating I took for you. Could you not endure one small beating for My sake?”
Redemptive Suffering: A Lesson in Perspective
It was a brutal beating that Jesus endured willingly. Lovingly. Heroically. A scourging that literally tore Him apart.
Yes, I felt like I “took a beating” this week.
But not like that.
What Jesus endured willingly, I endured begrudgingly.
What Jesus endured lovingly, I endured resentfully.
What Jesus endured heroically, I endured weakly.
That realization was humbling.
Meditating on the Scourging at the Pillar places my own suffering into perspective. It reveals both the perfection of Christ and my own weakness. It shows me how quickly I complain, how easily I grow bitter, and how small my endurance truly is.
But it also reveals something greater:
The depth of His love.
Jesus did not endure His suffering reluctantly. He did not resent the Cross. He accepted it freely — for me.
When Work Feels Like a Beating
There are weeks when work feels overwhelming. When responsibilities pile up. When exhaustion makes charity difficult.
But in those moments, the Sorrowful Mysteries remind me that my suffering — however small — can be united to Christ’s.
My fatigue can become prayer.
My frustration can become offering.
My “small beatings” can become acts of love.
When I shift from resentment to surrender, everything changes.
A Humbling but Hope-filled Reminder
Moments like this are humbling because they reveal how far I fall short.
Yet they are also filled with hope.
Because even in my weakness, Christ’s love remains constant.
Even in my resentment, He offers mercy.
Even in my exhaustion, He offers strength.
May we learn to unite our daily sufferings — at work, at home, in hidden places — to the suffering of Jesus.
Thrive in Jesus my Friends!